Lost Love

My whole life has been a whirlwind of bad situations and the wrong people- I never really believed in love. One night while aimlessly messing around on the computer, I got an IM from a complete stranger. I was not very big on talking to people I didn't know, but for some reason, I answered him and my life changed... I fell in love with the absolute most amazing person in the entire world - and he fell in love with me.

We spoke daily for almost 2 years, still never having met, despite so many problems and hardships we each endured. We were like two people lost in a haze who had struggled our entire lives to find each other... life is not only about happy stories though - we both were guilty of some lies, although mine were probably the bigger ones.

I just wanted him to love me for who I was, and I became afraid he couldn't do that. We began to fight and everything became so complicated. I still wanted to spend the rest of my life with him (even though we hadn't met still) but all of a sudden he wasn't so sure. I thought he was pushing me away and I panicked, and so I rejected him.

I was so afraid of being hurt that I couldn't stand to keep him in my life, and now I've lost him. He was the light of my life, and now I don't have him anymore.... because I could never be happy with the middle ground.